For those of you who do not know me, or are new to my blog, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia almost a year ago. As a result, I had to resign from a job that I absolutely loved-working with teenage girls in the student ministry at our church. For the first couple of months after my diagnosis, everyone on staff at the church and the close friends that our family has made since moving to Texarkana, were incredibly supportive. They would call, text, or stop by our house to visit me whenever I would have a particularly severe flare up. Their encouragement meant the world to me.
And then.... something happened.
All of the sudden those very same people who claimed to love me... who claimed to be praying for me... who claimed to be my friend, stopped. I don't know what caused this sudden change of heart, but it completely crushed me. Those so called "friends" of mine began treating me as though I had the black plague. It's been 9 months since I've heard from any of them. I don't understand what I did wrong? It's not like I asked for this disease. It's not like I don't pray every single day that the Lord would heal me. But what hurts the most is that those "friends" told me when I was first diagnosed with fibromyalgia that I would not have to walk through this alone- yet that is exactly what I have done. Out of all of my friends, only one remained. Michelle- if you are reading this- thank you.
So, I began praying that the Lord would begin placing new friends into my life. I prayed that new opportunities would present themselves for me to connect with other women especially, because I've always felt that it was important to have some really good "girl" friends in your life. I started this blog at the end of last year as a way of being able to connect with other similar minded people- and the Lord has definitely answered my prayer!
Thank you, Lord, for answering my prayer! I never would have guessed that the answer would come via my blog... but I'm so thankful it did.
Megan, I'm sorry that you had to experience that feeling of being let down by so-called friends. But I'm so happy that your prayers were answered. God is good and I'm happy to be your blog buddy! Jamie Reilly
ReplyDeleteMegan, thank you for sharing your heart! God moves people out of our lives to put those in it that we need in that season! It's never easy though. :( hate u had to experience that lonliness. Yay for blog friends though!!!!
ReplyDeleteJamie and Vanessa- Thank you both for your kind comments. I'm so glad to be your blogging buddy! :)
ReplyDeleteThis makes me happy - I'm going to have to check this out someday soon! I'm sad your friends have not stood by you, but I am glad you have started finding more support through SITS. Love seeing you happy beautiful. Much love!
ReplyDeleteMrs. Jones- You are precious! Love ya too!
DeleteYou are a wonderful person! I'm so glad that you found SITS, where you can make some true connections with new people.
ReplyDeleteCole, you are so sweet! Thank you! I've really enjoyed getting to know you via our blogs :)Wish we lived closer!
DeleteI just read this after feeling discouraged about still feeling alone in the blogging world. I guess I need to check out SITS, right?
ReplyDeleteThis makes me sad, that someone would ever not be friends with you. I just wish we would have been closer when we were at ETBU!
April-
DeleteYou should definitely check out SITS. They are currently doing a 31 Days to a Better Blog forum and that is where I have met so many wonderful ladies! Plus they give you great blogging tips and insights!
I have had a lot of different medical problems, and some undiagnosed "unknown immune disorder" etc. and I don't know if people think I am making it up, or whatever it is, it is hurtful and I understand. I am in the middle of some answers right now, and I haven't blogged about it...yet. Kudos to you. Look forward to being your blogging buddy :)
ReplyDeleteKim-
DeleteI know completely how you feel. I remember before I was officially diagnosed with fibromyalgia, being so scared because the doctors could not figure out what was wrong with me. I hope that you are able to find out what it is.
I hate that people think you are making it up, just because they cannot see any physical symptoms. I've had to deal with that as well. I wish people would understand that even though you may look totally fine on the outside- it doesn't necessarily mean that everything is working as it should on the inside, or that you are not experiencing pain.
I'm glad that I can connect with someone else who knows exactly what I am going through. It's nice to know that you are not alone- that you have support. Excited to be your blogging buddy as well!
So sorry to hear you have been let down! One of my best friends was diagnosed with fibromyalgia so I know a lot about the disease. Keep your head up and stay strong. God works in mysterious ways. So glad I found you through SITS!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your sweet encouragement! I'm so glad to have found you through SITS as well! I enjoy reading your blog!
DeleteIsn't it amazing what doors the blogging world can open? So glad you are now having fun on this journey. And to those that walked away...they are really missing out! :-)
ReplyDeleteJayme @ Her Late Night Cravings
Awww Jayme, you are too sweet! Thank you!
Delete