It has been two long years since the Lord first put it on our hearts to adopt.
Two years.
And we are no closer to starting the necessary paperwork to begin the adoption process than we were the day the Lord called us. Why, you ask? Money. That's it. That is the only thing that separates us from bringing another child (or if God graciously lavishes His blessings on us, multiple children) into our home.
Simply put...we cannot afford it.
Even if by God's grace we did not pay a single cent for the adoption because of generous donors, financial grants, and fundraisers, we would still be unable to afford to bring another child into our home.
And this pains me.
Believe me, I have wrestled with God over this fact for two years now. Questioning why He would burden us so with the cause of the fatherless? Why He would call us to something only to seemingly abandon us in the process? Why I often cannot sleep at night because I am up thinking about our future children- where they are, what they are doing, how they are being treated. Struggling with how much longer we will have to wait to bring them home. Why, no matter how hard we try to improve our financial situation, we are met with obstacles that keep us from making strides.
Why, God?
Why?
It hasn't been until this week that God has finally answered my cries.
He hasn't abandoned us.
He hasn't forgotten what He has called us to.
He hasn't forgotten what He has promised us.
It is because He wants ALL of the glory.
It's obvious to say that at this point, our adoption journey is impossible.
But God is the God of the impossible!
He specializes in the impossible.
And He desires for our story to point solely to Him.
To declare to the world that it was He and He ALONE made this happen.
I still do not know the intricate details of how this will occur.
But it no longer matters to me now.
Because I have full confidence that my God will come through on His promise.
It does not mean to say that we will not have to continue to wait.
That we will not have to continue to make sacrifices and budget and save for this adoption.
That we will cease to be on our knees, pounding the doors of Heaven with our request.
But you know what?
I'm excited!
I'm so thrilled to see how God is going to work!
I cannot believe that God would be so mindful of us, that He would choose to display His power in our circumstance.
And I cannot wait to give Him all of the glory for it!
Megan, my sweet friend, I'm with you. I hear the call to adopt as well...but it's so darn expensive. I completely understand all the paperwork, background checks, home visits...but struggle to understand that a child needing a home can cost upwards of 30 thousand dollars.
ReplyDeleteI do not understand this either, friend. All I can do is keep trusting that the Lord is Sovereign over it all.
DeleteLet me testify that God's bank account is not ours. There is no way we could afford our adoption but somehow each time we have needed to pay one big lump sum of money to our agency or something else we have had it. When God calls you He equips you in ways you never imagined. We could never have afforded our adoption, we started with literally nothing but He has provided it all thus far and we trust He will continue to do so. I can't wait to see how God works in your adoption journey! It is a life changing journey is so many amazing ways!
ReplyDeleteThank you for reminding me of this!
DeleteIt can get overwhelming, seeing the needs around you- longing to make some kind of dent- to make some sort of impact. We continue to trust God and His timing. We are unsure if we should just take a giant leap of faith and start filling out the paperwork, even though we do not have the means to pay for the application fee or the homestudy- acting in faith that God will provide us with the ability to pay for it. Or if we should just sit tight and continue to make strides a little bit at a time?
It used to bother me that we could not afford the adoption on our own. But now I couldn't be more excited! We will get a front row seat to a miraculous display of God's power!
One of the hardest things in life is to realize that God does not give us his plan all at once. He gives up pieces and want us to accept that as enough. We have to have faith that he knows the whole plan, after all He created it.
ReplyDeleteVery true...
DeleteHave you ever thought of the foster kids that need adopted in this country? My friends started fostering and found 2 young kids that were able to be adopted and they did so. It was practically free, since they were foster adopting. You have to be a foster parent to adopt them at nearly no cost. There may have been no cost at all I don't remember but those two sweet kids were rescued from a terrible home and are young enough to be "ok" now. After they adopted they are still able to foster but not required to. God was in all of that and we saw amazing work through that whole process.
ReplyDeletegood posting about Promises
ReplyDeleteSaying prayers for you! You are inspiring and I love reading about your passion for adoption!
ReplyDeleteBeatiful post!!! We will def keep you in our prayers!!! My friend has a blog on their adoption journey that is full of inspiration. http://addingaburden.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteI remember when you did a giveaway for them to help with funding their adoption!
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