"I want to cuddle."
This is Rylan's standard response whenever he is about to embark on something new. When he is frightened, anxious, or unsure of what is to come, his greatest desire is to sit in my lap and let me hold him. He craves the reassurance- needing to know that everything will turn out alright in the end. That eventually, this new journey will become routine.
You see, he is starting preschool for the first time tomorrow.
God provided us with yet another unexpected gift {this seems to be the story of our lives lately} and now we are able to put Rylan in the same preschool Hayden attended. While he is excited and tickled that he will have one of Hayden's former teachers, he is still uneasy about this whole transition. And as his mother, I feel that it is the least I can do to help ease his anxious heart, and simply allow him to rest in my arms and let me love on him.
Watching Rylan react to the news that he will now have the opportunity to go to school reminds me of where I am spiritually in this season of life.
It seems that around every corner, we are facing new territory. Currently speaking, every area of our life has been colored with change.
We have felt for some time now that change was coming. That we are on the verge of breakthrough in many areas that we have been praying over for years. That God is at work all around us, preparing the way for us to move forward at the proper time. While we are thrilled with all that the Lord is doing in our lives right now, the spiritual tension and momentum that has been building each day can be overwhelming. Frightening even.
I catch myself growing anxious spiritually as I wait for the Lord to direct my next steps. And it seems that all I want to do at this very moment is sit in Presence of God the Father and let Him wrap His Everlasting arms around me, and just hold me. To pour out His reassurance on my anxious soul. To remind me that He is Sovereign and that though the unknown can be scary at times, that He will be right beside me throughout the entire journey.
And until He requires me to act, I think I am quite content for now, to simply sit in His Presence.
"Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened. and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28 HCSB
A lovely post. It is hard to do this sometimes. I went through a similar experience and found it hard to rest in God's arms because I wanted results NOW! It was a difficult but rewarding spiritual discipline. Bless you xxx
ReplyDeleteI am with you, I often want results right, NOW. It is so hard to wait. The Lord has placed me in a season of waiting at the moment- and you'd think that by now it would come much easier to me. lol
DeleteI feel you sister. The waiting is the hardest. I'm going to try to help link you up with some women from the TX bloggers group - since you're not on facebook. However, they do a Google + chat weekly! I'll see what I can do to make sure you're a part!
ReplyDeleteApril, you are precious! One of the many reasons I love calling you my friend :)
DeleteI can definitely relate to your post. I can't tell you the number of times I've been anxious, waiting and anticipating God's next move for my life. Each time He will kindly remind me of Philippians 4:6-7. You have a new follower in me. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Toia for your kindness :)
DeleteI love this image I now have of just "cuddling" with God. He is so good. I love your little boy's reaction... The same as my five year old when it comes to change. :) They are so innocent and precious. May God give him grace for his new adventure in preschool, and for you as well!
ReplyDeleteThank you!
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