Wednesday, August 15, 2012

My Hiding Place

This is it. 
The location I run to when I am most desperate to meet with God.
{a location that is often shared with our golden retriever, Max}

This corner of our bedroom is often soaked in my tears.
It is the place where I dance before the Lord.
This is where I sing.
A place where I come to wrestle with God over something He has spoken.
This is where the Lord speaks most intimately with me.
I could sit in this tiny corner for hours at a time- if my role as Mommy and wife permits me to do so.
I often come here with my Bible, journal and pen in hand, anticipating a word from the Lord.
This- is my hiding place.

It didn't used to be.
My ideal place was my favorite spot on our couch.
A place where I could sit comfortably- at ease with my surroundings.
I would have leisurely access to my morning cup of coffee.
I could see into the boys bedroom from that spot, which made it less difficult on me for when I needed to stand in as referee.

But that's just it... I was comfortable.

I was easily distracted.
Unable to maintain focus.
I often found other pressing matters to attend to while sitting there.

I remember when I first ran to that tiny corner in our bedroom.
I was experiencing a particularly severe fibromyalgia flare up, only at that time, we had yet to discover the source of my pain. It was the beginning of the darkest season of my life. I hid in that space because I did not want my sons to see me at my worst. I was utterly broken. In shambles. I was desperate. 
It was from that corner that I cried out to God from the depths of my soul. 
And He heard my cry.

In the 21 years that I have known and walked with the Lord, He has blessed my time in this tiny little corner more than any of my other hiding places.
It's not a comfortable place to sit. In fact, sometimes I am utterly miserable.
And I cannot help but wonder at times if that is exactly what he desires- for me to be uncomfortable.
For it is when I am uncomfortable, that He seems to do His greatest work in me. 

What about you?
Do you have a special place that you run to when you desire to hear from God?
Will you share it with us?

A Community of Mothers


  1. This is a really beautiful post. I don't have a specific place that I go, but I often go on walks by myself to kind of clear my head and feel some time with God. It's been hard for me to establish a scripture study routine, so I'm definitely open to ideas! Just found your blog and have enjoyed getting to know you better. I'm excited to follow along!

    new follower :)

    1. Thank you so much Bonnie! I'm thrilled to have you :)

      I read the devotional Jesus Calling by Sarah Young every morning before I dig into Scripture. It never ceases to bless me and help me clear my head before entering into the Lord's Presence.

      Also, the YouVersion Bible app offers a variety of devotions to choose from. I highly recommend it!

  2. Such a heartwarming post. I could really feel your emotions while writing this one. Too beautiful. Saw you on Bloggy Moms. :-)


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