I came dangerously close to the heart of God. And it almost killed me.
I was preparing a guest blog post for my sweet friend, April, when it happened. As I researched global orphan statistics, with an emphasis on Ethiopia, God allowed me- for the first time in my life- to experience just a glimpse of His heart for the fatherless.
There are no words-in any language- that can adequately describe such a feeling.
The weight of such love was so potent...so fierce... that it was physically too much for my body to bear.
I was forced to my knees, overcome with emotion, as the dry heaving and sobbing began. There was a tightness in my chest that burned with an intensity I have never experienced.
I couldn't breathe.
It was as though I were drowning. Wrestling. Struggling. Desperate for air. I needed relief- only- it wouldn't come. It lasted only a moment... but I am still feeling the effects hours later.
As I sat in my car waiting to pick up my son from school, God whispered the following in my ear,
"I love you that much, too."
That fierce, passionate, almost dangerous love that I felt earlier this afternoon- He has for me. And He loves you with that same intensity as well. Friends, if you only knew the depth and weight of His great love for you, you would never experience another moment of doubt ever again. It's that vast. That potent. That real.
And it's for you.
"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."